I prefer to have sex with shoes

I am a man who has accepted that he is not a real man. I am a premature ejaculator, I have a small penis and I am impotent. I am also very submissive, love to be sexually humiliated and like to wear women's clothing and be kept chaste. I have never been able to penetrate a woman vaginally to orgasm and have accepted that women do not like to have sex with me. I have made a virtue out of necessity and now derive pleasure from my sexual failure.